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Empire State Skyline Wall Mural
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Cinderella's Castle
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Escaped!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cv-0mmVnxPA
I remember watching this movie being about 5, (its one of my mum's favourites.) It is probably the first adult movie I ever watched and mostly understood what was going on. Even then it and the soundtrack had the ability to inspire me. It 100 percent embodies the 80's power women, it is the movie version of the shoulder pads and the power suit. Better than this, it is the 80's woman letting loose, celebrating being herself and maybe also letting go of what has held her back. I remember even as a 5 year old understanding (not to the same depth) the pain of seeing an old love move on from you and in a growing pain, gain strength from it. Very poignant and breath taking, as gay as that sounds, is the way that independence and also grace represented in this movie and soundtrack.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siwpn14IE7E
I guess I really was conceived during the 80's, because seriously, these songs just get me. Anyways, the first time I really started listening to this song, and then included it on all of the mix CD's i made for like a year straight, was the first year out of highschool, first year uni. I remeber drving down the princess highway, to the library, to read whatever books i bloody wanted, without anyone monitoring or closing off my options and thinking i was ON TOP OF THE WORLD!
For the first time EVER i chose what i read, how long it took me and what i did when i read it, no essay, not exteresinisal reading, just pure enjoyment, surely i must have been on the highway to the danger zone!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fk4Srnxu0O4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FufL80hJsP8&feature=kp
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81tPja8Cc8U&feature=kp
I'd always loved The Killers, definitely felt a connection to them back in the Mr Brightside, The OC days, long before they released that song about the man who should have talked like a gentleman and looked like jesus.
But then after that, this was the first album of theirs that I listened to through and through. From Bones, to Confessions of a king to the Wild River it's perfect. It is actually (even more so than RHCP (hard to beat) the most perfect album i have ever experienced.) This is especially because i felt like it was about escape, at the time I most needed escape. But in the same sense, this album, and all of its songs, taken either on their own or as a whole can transport me right back to sweet innocent Cat, on one of her first ever adventures far away from home. Creating and deciding who she is and whom she wants to be. I have never felt more beautiful or more mortal than I did in those days. I kept her, I saved myself. I'm still here, and I'll always have the Killers to remind me of that!
CREDITS
Let the River Run- Carley Simon
Danger Zone (top Gun Soundtrack) - Kenny Loggins
Sam's Town- The Killers
Bones- The Killers
This River Is Wild- The Killers
OTHER UNMENTIONED
Beach House- (Devotion)
Goldfrapp- (Seventh Tree)
Future pop 2008- (album)
Moby- Go (The very best of Moby)
I remember watching this movie being about 5, (its one of my mum's favourites.) It is probably the first adult movie I ever watched and mostly understood what was going on. Even then it and the soundtrack had the ability to inspire me. It 100 percent embodies the 80's power women, it is the movie version of the shoulder pads and the power suit. Better than this, it is the 80's woman letting loose, celebrating being herself and maybe also letting go of what has held her back. I remember even as a 5 year old understanding (not to the same depth) the pain of seeing an old love move on from you and in a growing pain, gain strength from it. Very poignant and breath taking, as gay as that sounds, is the way that independence and also grace represented in this movie and soundtrack.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siwpn14IE7E
I guess I really was conceived during the 80's, because seriously, these songs just get me. Anyways, the first time I really started listening to this song, and then included it on all of the mix CD's i made for like a year straight, was the first year out of highschool, first year uni. I remeber drving down the princess highway, to the library, to read whatever books i bloody wanted, without anyone monitoring or closing off my options and thinking i was ON TOP OF THE WORLD!
For the first time EVER i chose what i read, how long it took me and what i did when i read it, no essay, not exteresinisal reading, just pure enjoyment, surely i must have been on the highway to the danger zone!!!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fk4Srnxu0O4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FufL80hJsP8&feature=kp
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81tPja8Cc8U&feature=kp
I'd always loved The Killers, definitely felt a connection to them back in the Mr Brightside, The OC days, long before they released that song about the man who should have talked like a gentleman and looked like jesus.
But then after that, this was the first album of theirs that I listened to through and through. From Bones, to Confessions of a king to the Wild River it's perfect. It is actually (even more so than RHCP (hard to beat) the most perfect album i have ever experienced.) This is especially because i felt like it was about escape, at the time I most needed escape. But in the same sense, this album, and all of its songs, taken either on their own or as a whole can transport me right back to sweet innocent Cat, on one of her first ever adventures far away from home. Creating and deciding who she is and whom she wants to be. I have never felt more beautiful or more mortal than I did in those days. I kept her, I saved myself. I'm still here, and I'll always have the Killers to remind me of that!
CREDITS
Let the River Run- Carley Simon
Danger Zone (top Gun Soundtrack) - Kenny Loggins
Sam's Town- The Killers
Bones- The Killers
This River Is Wild- The Killers
OTHER UNMENTIONED
Beach House- (Devotion)
Goldfrapp- (Seventh Tree)
Future pop 2008- (album)
Moby- Go (The very best of Moby)
you will always be you
This photo was taken way early on in our brief courtship. Taken on For-falls, fresh from falls. Way back when zanibar was billions and alice was fucking josh. Right back to when ash was straight (em was just her uni friend), and J-rome was just that, a-roaming. Back before I had a degree, or apparently any sense. But in all these things that have changed one thing hasn't. YOU.
Way back then I was writing angst blog posts (most since I've deleted after that time you hacked into my account), but fragments remain. The emotions never forgetting still here.
God damn it but, thats not why this photo hurts, burns, white hot burns me. The burn comes from the realisation that i had you, for a fleeting second, you were pulled out of the foam, up onto the shore, long enough to gasp for breath, to breath, to laugh.
I'm a thief, I'm taking forever those fleeting memories, hidden between the death threats and the yelling. My conscious tells me i should leave them. That I should rebury them for the next girl to find and discover. But I love you. I still want them.
Maybe one day I will return them. But not yet. I feel their weight as i try to move on. (is it even possible to be able to move on carrying them?).
Obsession
Words can not express how important you are to me.
Your blood is worth more than mine, that's why I would spill all of mine before a single drop of yours fell.
Your thoughts are so rare and precious, they make all of mine relax with their own irrelevance. You take away the thoughts and stress adding beauty and insight.
Your wants run the deepest of courses through an ancient and holy valley. This is why no matter what they are, I will always give in. I live to give to you.
But you are mine. I am devouring you whole. And in that I gain more power than you could ever have.
.
Your blood is worth more than mine, that's why I would spill all of mine before a single drop of yours fell.
But you are mine. I am devouring you whole. And in that I gain more power than you could ever have.
.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
best feelings in the world
1. Lying in bed snoozing, listening to the rain. Wind is also good, just knowing you are warm, toasty and safe in your bed, with no deadline to get up, or not soon anyway. Snoozing is best at the worst of times but rain, wind hurricane make that warm fuzzy feeling all the more intense!
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – whether its reading a book you last read when you were seven and had just finished your chores and slipped the tenner into the book or if you are going through your old crusty clubbing clutches from when you first turned 18 and finding an old fifty, it rules!!!
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Orange Traffic Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the orange light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.
2. Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – whether its reading a book you last read when you were seven and had just finished your chores and slipped the tenner into the book or if you are going through your old crusty clubbing clutches from when you first turned 18 and finding an old fifty, it rules!!!
3. Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – You pass her on the street or in the subway. She glances up at you momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.
4. Skinny Dipping – There is something mysteriously liberating about being naked in a body of water. You are naked, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.
5. Receiving a Real Letter or Package via Snail Mail – E-mail has become the primary source of written communication. Most snail mail these days is junk mail. When you check the mail and find a real letter or package from someone you know, excitement overtakes you as you tear into this rare gift.
6. Making the Orange Traffic Light - It’s one of the most common simple pleasures, the act of beating the pack. As you blaze through the orange light you glance in your rearview to see all the cars behind you stopping at the red light. Yes! You made it!
7. Telling a Funny or Interesting, True Story - One of the most enticing roles you lead in life is that of the storyteller. You love to share stories, especially those that will captivate your audience with deep curiosity and humor. There are few things more satisfying than telling a true story that others enjoy listening to.
8. Seeing a Friend Stumble Over Himself – As you walk across the street with your friend, he fails to accurately address the curb on the other side. He trips and stumbles around momentarily before regaining his footing, then swiftly attempts to play it off like nothing happened. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.
9. Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song for that moment is one of those simple pleasures in life that instantly lifts your spirits. You could be driving home from work, hanging out at a bar with friends, or jogging. When the right song rattles your ear drums the entire meaning of life seems crystal clear.
10. The First Sip of a Beverage When You’re Thirsty – You just finished mowing the lawn or taking a long jog. The only thing on your mind is an ice-cold glass of water. When you are really, really thirsty, that first sip of any liquid beverage is sheer bliss.
11. Catching a Glimpse of Bare Skin on the Opposite Sex – For guys, it’s when the waitress bends over a little too far. For girls it’s seeing that buff guy in a Speedo. Either way, when you see a bit more skin than you were expecting on the opposite sex, you can’t help but to smirk on the inside.
12. Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – There is a moment of silence. Then all of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. This rare occurrence is something to smile about.
13. The Pull-Through Parking Spot – You pull into a parking spot and are delighted to see the availability of the parking spot immediately in front of you. You pull through to the spot in front so that when you return to the car you can drive forward out of the parking spot. Why? Because driving backwards is a pain in the butt.
14. Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something abruptly awakens you and you think it’s time to get up. Then you squint over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep. A warm euphoric feeling shoots though your body as you glide gracefully back to your dreams.
15. People Watching – Sitting there on your bench you can see people in every direction. Tall people, small people, thin and plump. Blond, brunette, and redhead alike. Each of them has a different stride and a unique expression. As you drift from body to body you are mesmerized by what you see.
16. Putting On Clothes Straight from the Dryer – As soon as the dryer buzzes, you pull out your clothes and put them on. They feel soothingly warm on your skin and emit a fresh-scented aroma into the air. A sentiment of ease comes over you as you head out to conquer the day.
17. A Familiar Smell – You just pulled into your parent’s driveway and opened the car door. You haven’t been home in a long while. You smell familiarity in the air, the scent of a large pine tree in the neighbor’s yard. As you head through the front door, more familiar smells consume your senses. Gosh, it feels good to be home…
18. The Feeling You Get When Your Idea Works – You have been struggling to resolve a complex problem all day and you just can’t seem to get it right. Filled with frustration, you decide to exercise one last idea before calling it a night. You’ve had many ideas before that failed miserably… but this time it works.
19. Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – You yank at the corner of the bedspread to create just enough space to slide your body under the freshly cleaned sheets. The sheets feel cool to the touch. Everything seems so clean, like nobody has ever slept in this bed before.
20. A Beautiful View – As the car veers around the side of the mountain you gaze out the passenger window. It’s a clear, sunny day and you can see the entire valley below filled with wild flowers and bright green vegetation. The scenery reminds you of something you once saw in National Geographic. But here it is live, right before your eyes.
21. Reminiscing About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – Pink Floyd once said “the memories of a man in his old age are the deeds of a man in his prime”. There is no simple pleasure more satisfying than recounting the greatest moments of your life with your closest friends who lived these moments alongside you.
22. Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – It’s been an average day. Nothing really great has happened, but nothing terrible occurred either. This monotonous day has put you in a dreary mood. Unexpectedly, an older, attractive lady taps you on the shoulder, calls you “handsome” and says she loves your shirt. The day just got a whole lot better.
23. Having a Good Laugh – Laughter is the greatest cure of all. Life is extraordinary in the moments when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe. These moments of deep laughter are divine in the sense that they cleanse your mood and set your mind on a positive track.
24. The Feeling After a Healthy Workout - It’s a giddy feeling of self accomplishment; the one true activity that actually makes you feel better and look better simultaneously. When you walk out the front door of the gym you are on top of the world.
25. The Celebration in the Instant Something Makes Sense – Even now that it has explained to you for the third time, you just don’t understand how it works. Everyone else seems to understand but you. Then out of the blue the dots connect in your mind. You finally get it, and it feels great!
26. Relaxing Outdoors on a Sunny Day – As you relax sprawled out in a lawn chair, the sun warms your skin and a light breeze keeps the temperature comfortable. Birds are chirping merrily in the trees behind you. You are at complete peace with the environment.
27. Holding Hands with Someone You Love – Every time she grabs your hand you are overcome with an awareness of how much she means to you. Holding hands is sensual and physically intimate, yet subtle. There are few people you allow to hold your hand, so when it happens you can be sure that the moment is special.
28. Playing in the Water – Water marvels people of all ages. From jumping in puddles as a child, to doing cannon balls in the pool as an adolescent, to enjoying a cocktail in the Jacuzzi as an adult… water is enjoyable.
29. Making Someone Smile – You notice that your colleague has been under a great deal of stress with meeting a deadline, so you take it upon yourself to complete one of her indirect responsibilities for her. As soon as she realizes what you did, she comes into your office with a big smile on her face. “Thank you”, she says. You just hit two birds with one stone, because making her smile just made your day.
30. Finishing What You Started – You just finished up a big project you’ve been working on for the last few months, or maybe you just finished your first marathon… Either way, you finalized what you set out to accomplish. The feeling of self accomplishment you get when you finish what you started is by far one of the most rewarding simple pleasures life has to offer.
They call me The Wild Rose
But my name was Elisa Day
Why they call me it I do not know
For my name was Elisa Day
But my name was Elisa Day
Why they call me it I do not know
For my name was Elisa Day
From the first day I saw her I knew she was the one
As she stared in my eyes and smiled
For her lips were the colour of the roses
They grew down the river, all bloody and wild
As she stared in my eyes and smiled
For her lips were the colour of the roses
They grew down the river, all bloody and wild
When he knocked on my door and entered the room
My trembling subsided in his sure embrace
He would be my first man, and with a careful hand
He wiped the tears that ran down my face
My trembling subsided in his sure embrace
He would be my first man, and with a careful hand
He wiped the tears that ran down my face
On the second day I brought her a flower
She was more beautiful than any woman I’d seen
I said, ‘Do you know where the wild roses grow
So sweet and scarlet and free?’
She was more beautiful than any woman I’d seen
I said, ‘Do you know where the wild roses grow
So sweet and scarlet and free?’
On the second day he came with a single rose
Said: ‘Will you give me your loss and your sorrow?’
I nodded my head, as I layed on the bed
He said, ‘If I show you the roses will you follow?’
Said: ‘Will you give me your loss and your sorrow?’
I nodded my head, as I layed on the bed
He said, ‘If I show you the roses will you follow?’
On the third day he took me to the river
He showed me the roses and we kissed
And the last thing I heard was a muttered word
As he stood smiling above me with a rock in his fist
He showed me the roses and we kissed
And the last thing I heard was a muttered word
As he stood smiling above me with a rock in his fist
On the last day I took her where the wild roses grow
And she lay on the bank, the wind light as a thief
As I kissed her goodbye, I said, ‘All beauty must die’
And lent down and planted a rose between her teeth
And she lay on the bank, the wind light as a thief
As I kissed her goodbye, I said, ‘All beauty must die’
And lent down and planted a rose between her teeth
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