dear joel,
i just want to say im sorry for the way it ended, like that it had to end.... but it really did need to... best for both of us. We both need fresh starts.
today I went through my room and got rid of everything retaining you. Including a bunch of photos from our europe trip. these photos were unlike most, actual physical photos, taken on the disposable camera. there is one particularly beautiful shot of you and the tiber river. i gave you the negative, because i would want it of it were of me :)
gosh joel, it been so long since we have been over and i don't know what to say, except... all our memories of friendship are forever beautiful. I can never think a bad thing of you because you were my bestest ever friend for so long!
i love you, like i always did, but never in the right way. i want/hope/know :) you will ind a girl perfect for you.
i was not her ;) but we sure were great friends... i hope we still can be (but unfortunately i can be so incredibly naive...)
damnit

but in other news;



yay. Joel, i had found so much happy!!!
I only want you too as well because then we can be friends again :D
god i miss you.
forever your friend,
love cat