murder

i think,
i may just,
 kill men and eat their hearts for a hobby.




its honestly the last thing i want
and i hate myself
but it does come to the point where
i want to stop existing.........................................

this is what my soul is doing

Tired, empty lost, looking out upon a lake that i once thought my home. She is beautiful, mysterious and now i realise that living here, being here has taken me away from everything. She has poisoned and isolated me. Now its beauty is a harsh reminder of all the lies and deceit.

sometimes i wonder how I'm not dead yet,





                                                                                                              then i wonder why.

i love you

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S-Xm7s9eGxU

"I have no idea to this day what those two Italian ladies were singing about. Truth is, I don't want to know. Some things are best left unsaid. I'd like to think they were singing about something so beautiful, it can't be expressed in words, and makes your heart ache because of it. I tell you, those voices soared higher and farther than anybody in a gray place dares to dream. It was like some beautiful bird flapped into our drab little cage and made those walls dissolve away."

   (YouYube user 'vsauceeee' about motzart's Canzonetta Sull'aria)

If you love your boyfriend show him that you care, and that he's the only one for you.

• Don't flirt with his friends or other guys.

Tick. 

• Don't lie to him or cheat on him.

Tick. 

• Don't be cold, but don't worry. If you worry too much, he will be under the impression you don't trust him. If you don't worry at all he will be under the impression you don't love him.

Sounds easy, but also isn't it just adding complication? If you are worried, and everyone one is now and then, just voice it and address whatever is making you concerned. the more relaxed it is the better. Also GET OVER insecurities. Being exposed and vulnerable is part of trust, but you can do it in a smart way.

• If you are happy to be with him, let him know. Smile often and let him know that your smile is all because of him.

I should do this more!

• Laugh a lot, but don't be fake when you laugh. Truly mean it.

I need to laugh more. Learn not to take others so seriously and maybe myself a little more.

• Make sure you assure him. Men can be simple creatures that require assurance or will seek it somewhere else.

Need to do this more! I want him to be reassured definitely. 

• Be yourself with him, not someone you are not.

I don't know how to be anyone else but myself, sometimes am i to raw and honest?

• Call him.

Or in my case send in cute messages coz i can!

• Talk to him about things you wouldn't talk about with anyone else to show him you trust him.

Maybe i over share sometimes. Also be strong and able to work out issues for yourself.

• Show him that he's yours and only yours.

He knows!!

• Always open to him and never hide any secrets even if it means you have to break up with him.

Sturt knows me and the truth would never mean that we break up because we are well suited and we are best friends!