roller coaster

up&down.

the person i hate second most

loser, user.
waste of time.
child. irritating and rude.
awesome at sex. bad at love.
lame lame lame.



i can do better than you, but you can't do better than me, so SMARTEN THE FUCK UP.

LOLZ

and you think i'm too obsessed with you? LOL













your such a fool. you'd need to work harder to get that sort of recognition from me.

BULLETPROOF HEART

aaaaand BAIL. BAIL BAIL BAIL BAIL.

burns like black acid

the thought of him moving on
still burns like black acid.
but i've worked out its not burning me.
its burning any feelings i have left for him.
so it fucking hurts,
but its healthy.
like burning off a wart or a mole.



I guess I'll always love him.
Just never again.

You are perfect.
I am perfect when I'm with you.

lets make this something? or lets walk away now while i still see you as perfect.

sometimes when i see happy couples together, i want to punch myself in the face...

but i just get high instead

hurt me hurt me hurt me

i never saw true beauty till this night

teddy! stop judging me

even if your nothing.

you make me see the light. its not even you that does this. somehow the light just reflected off you and caught my eye.

YOU LOST ME

Be not the slave of your own past — plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep, and swim far, so you shall come back with new self-respect, with new power, and with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.
Ralph Waldo Emerson.

Love is the closest thing we have to magic.

It can be witch craft. Paralyzing and suffocating. It can be up lifting and breath taking.
The only love i have if for my friends. This is forever.

Have you ever wanted to give up?

I want to give up and die.

My room is beautiful
my soul is soothing
i love sitting inside my self
its a lovely spot, the best place on earth
but my room has so many windows
and i can see you playing outside
you make me laugh.
i want to come out in the sun with you

you make my yay again. you make me comfortable.
even if this is nothing, its huge for me coz i trust you.
and even by accident you actually know me really well.
i didn't mean to tell you, to admit it, to let you see
but i am crazy. only the best kind. of-course
and the way i work is i just fall.
i just let myself be caught by the wind,
go up to the highest point i know and let go
or in the waves like a washing machine,
or flop down as if shot on the powdery snow.
and your right it IS fun!
i just hope that i won't break MY sternum.
but like you said that hard to do.
and i am beautiful
my soal is mysterious and allering.
let me polish up and youll see it
like hidden glitter under dry leaves
you get a glimpse and want more.
trust me,
i am so free. thats your fault
i would do anything. im down for that
im down for just having fun.
ill watch the same onld tired movie again and again
although you have perfectly exquiste taste so how could this be a problem
i think you are funny and you make me laugh
the most likely killer for me right now is being forgotten,
undervalued.
and i want to shout and scream and obsess (more)
but im not that self destructive

i'm only wish is i could be the spectator for once
i wish i could hover out of me
get the best possible view
and what the magic of that which is me falling.
look for the hidden gold.
i am the treasure.

"
Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. And intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way."
— Janet Fitch

one kiss and i'm gone. i have no heart to actually break. not yet but theres one growing. and ur fueling it. one kiss and im gone, i want to move in and travel together and charm your family and make ur pets like me. i hate sleeping alone. i love kissing you. i can feel our mouths molding together. i want to make you happy. i want to spend 24hrs together i am becoming addicted. i want to chat for hours i want you to keep making me laugh. please. i want you. when your here i can turn the lights off and face the dark. i want to put my life in your hands. i want you to fall for me. i want you to want to me. i am so tired. i am so chill. i can't help but put all my hopes into one basket.



DEAR WORLD,
PLEASE GIVE ME ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD.
TEACH ME TO CHARM AGAIN.
I REALLY WANT THIS, IS THAT CRAZY?

dark hair suits me so much better

i love you. but i love me more! so much opportunity. its grande and i have awesome friends!

little bunnies and little boys go running when they see me coming. They can smell the crazy. Men only stay to stare and watch the entertainment. Girls watch on in sympathy. I forget if im actually awake or if im asleep. I belong to the wind. Even i don't care about what happens next. Too hard to keep track of you. He asks me why i want him and im clutching at straws all the while screaming but because im lonely. Don't stay lonely. Lonely little kitten.

i now officially belong to the wind

i had a dream that i killed myself last night
it was beautiful. somthing about falling from a great height through sheets hanging on the line.
because behind it there wasn't death.
death was just like a veil, a curtain and behind it was another room.
a beautiful room, with doors and windows and other curtains.

i don't think it was just a dream.


last night i killed myself.
It was beautiful.
I wonder how many other selfs i have yet to discover.
i am pretty shy around this one.
but this room is beautiful. I think i shall rest a while here.

i am the ocean, i am the sea. there is a world inside of me.
BMTH

Love a me love a me
Say that you love me
Fool me fool me
Go on and fool me

I can't care 'bout anything but you...

is it easier for girls to get laid than guys?

coz i would seam to not have any trouble if i tried

HowDoYouKnowForSure?